to be gay

let me just list the factors that i thought contributed on making me part of the lgbt community.

i grew up timid. introvert. a lil bit scared of new faces. so i look up to my sisters because they are not like me. they easily get along with other people. my sister E is like the little "miss congeniality" version of my mom.. yes, my mom won the "miss congeniality" award in our place.. we even used to tease her about her "stations/terminals" (within a 25 meter street, she talks to about 4 persons she meet along the way, individually). so, a 5 minute walk within that street will actually turn into 20 minutes (she never missed saying "hi!" to anyone she knows). exact opposite? well, my dad is.

dad seldom talks to other people. he is not the friendly-type. he does not initiate a topic on any conversation he's into. he just like listen to the person talking, but always makes it a point to share "his side" (his funny beliefs and principles, which i found "one-sided" most of the time) and stand up for it. (a separate story for my dad in the future.) so maybe, i am more like my dad than my mom..

i grew up with two sisters. i have a brother, the oldest child in the family, but my maternal grandparents raised him. so we did not have the brotherly bonding. i never had a brother i can look up to and teach me the "boys" things. never into basketball or any kind of "for the boys" sport (i play patintero though. and jackstones too. chinese garter. paper dolls. what else?! i got them all from my sister E.). i play outside with sis E and deal mostly with girls of her age. plus young gay guys.

when i was in the latter part of elementary education, my barkadas (the closest ones) are all girls. i am the brain of the group (doing the assignments blah blah blah) and they are the ones who do the social activities. i learned a lot of "girls stuffs" from them. they are my so-called family while inside the school.

these are some of the what i thought in the past the reasons why i turned out to be gay. but today, i believe these are only contributing factors. i believe being gay is a chemistry of genes + external factors. they come hand in hand.

(Photo from:http://blog.beonecity.com/?p=1361)